♥Cherie♥

Your words are toxic

2011-01-07T11:03:00.000+08:00

Mum, if you cant speak well, then dont speak at all.
Everytime you open your mouth you make me feel depressed about myself.

tomorrow

2010-11-24T22:17:00.000+08:00

preparing for my trip tomorrow....

my luggage too small. ARGHHH!!!

I WILL MISS SINGAPORE FOR A MONTH!! i will miss my bffs too. and my family. :( homesick ahh!!

And I'm Guilty

2010-11-24T16:54:00.000+08:00

What's the point of going to a desirous foreign country, when you know that ur parents struggled and strived so hard to make it happen for you??

i'm so angry. so angry with myself that i had to let this happen. i'm so sad, sad that i'm going there when instead i think they're the ones who most deserve the trip. and i'm guilty, cos i can feel their heartpain as they give their portion of hard earned money to me so that i can enjoy.

the more i typed, i more i cant control my tears.
suddenly, i just dont feel like going anymore.

Pinky Pink

2010-11-23T23:52:00.001+08:00

HEY YO!!!

i've finished learning the dance steps from jolin's mtv. BUT excludes learning the ending part which i find it difficult to learn with the extreme twisting of ur arms. ouch!

thn at ann's hse, she taught me basic steps of salsa. i like too!! and i heard frm her that thr's social night whr the salsa dancers are gathered to dance tgt, and well i guess frm the name, socialize ard. kinda cool, eh?

she helped me paint my fingers too!! :)))

I asked her to draw this one. haha. EWWww. my thumb has a lot of deadskins closeup. ugly!

and, on top of tt, we baked apple crumble!

wad can i say? MAMA MIA!!! will bake it myself next time!!

I know I love dancing

2010-11-16T15:29:00.002+08:00

蔡依林 Jolin Tsai- 美人计

i'm learning the dance in this mtv now. haha i'm too free!! plus i like her dance moves inside. Vogueing!!! all the complicated hands movements. i missed dancing :( def will attend lessons once i'm available!!

had stopped dancing ever since i graduated in sec sch, and before that my life is always about dancing. because of this interest, i neglected my studies and my grandma kinda disapprove me spending most of my time dancing, instead of studying. now tt i've stopped dancing, i can only enjoy the times when i go to the dance floor and rock it. even dancing on the dance flr cldnt satisfy my crave to work my body out (esp when i'm drunk/tipsy/high) when i'm not clubbing, i confessed that often i found myself either daydreaming that i'm attending dance performances or practicing some dance moves at home. sigh. i really cannot live my life w/o listening to music and dancing!!!!

i've decided. once i'm available, i want to learn vogueing, street jazz or salsa. time to find someone to join me!!!

FLAT BROKE

2010-11-09T13:02:00.002+08:00

i feel so pathetic and miserable ever as i look at my account summary; i've nv been so poor in my life. and yet, thr are so many things tt i didnt have and need (not want) to buy that are in unaffordable range, which most people wld even think it's affordable to them. i feel like crying.

the rate of money going out is so much faster and easier than it going in. i guess most wld, no doubt, agree with this. i've been randomly working, so far the salary tt i earned is only enough for my daily expenses. the amount of my pocket money helps far less than my earnings, what can i do? i rather depend on myself.

just days ago my fren agreed to lend some money to me, and i feel so grateful to him. i didnt know that i wld need to borrow some money until i'm left with no alternatives. thank u god, now i got more debt to clear. i forseen myself walking on a long long path filled with thorns prickling me until the debt is paid off. i'm prepared for more sufferings to come.

on a brighter note, at least i've experienced how being poor is like. when i begin to earn a real income, i'll keep this lesson in mind from spending extravagantly in future.

p.s. to friends, i'm super sensitive now. pls DONT ever complain to my face tt u're broke/poor becos i believe u're nv as broke/poor as me and go check the dictionary for these words in case u dont undst wad they really mean.

Mind your words, Watch your mouth

2010-11-08T12:13:00.001+08:00

but u cant control that, isnt it? tt's other ppl's mouth which they can say whatever they want to. and instead of telling and reminding them, i give up and bite my lips shut. however, i wonder what i shld do in future in the long run.

what goes around comes around, your action directly reflects on your criticism on others before. it's so zzzzz. oh wells, at least i know abt whom now.

SIM Bash Party @ supperclub

2010-11-01T12:37:00.001+08:00

YES. i know i'm not a SIM student. and YES, i shld be doing assignmt at home but OH WELLS, with the invitation (frm sueann) in my face and of my creeping temptation to take a break from studying, i dont mind partying and have some fun! OH u know i cant resist to be part of the FUN..

so here goes the night last saturday:

the clique

pool of alcohol shaun threw up (nt vomit)

the drunkards

i was wearing flats and the whole club is so crowded that throughout the entire night, my feet got trodded by alot of ppl esp girls with heels. THAT, inclusive sueann's heels. oh my god...... GODDAMN PAIN LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sobs. at one point i really felt like throwing my temper and jus walk out of the club. well, luckily i didnt. cos i think if i throw my temper ppl will jus think tt i'm high/tipsy/drunk. zzzz.

presenting you my feet, with all the bruises and dirt:

sigh... mayb i wont wear flats to club anymore...

Rene Furterer Shampoo for Thinning Hair

2010-10-31T22:13:00.003+08:00

i wonder how many ppl i know has the same problem as me?

it all started like this. i started to have insomnia a few months ago, and my diet hasnt been very healthy. i didnt exercise alot too, and when i exercise, i swim, which is bad for my hair. so thn i noticed that my hair dropped more than usual, and it has continued for weeks. it didnt help tt i feel so depress, even now, that the stress accumulates. my scalp itch and is flaky too, and my hair stylist told me that i've been using the wrong shampoo. THERE. tt's one major source for unhealthy scalp. he even told me something which i think i ought to share with u guys:

1) shampoo is for your scalp, not for the hair. especially in such a weather in singapore, u gotta pick the right shampoo for ur scalp. he also mentioned that conditioner is for your hair, so yep, this is the concept.

2) there r 4 major brands of shampoo in s'pore which do all the extensive advertisements you can see on TV. Dove, Pantene, Silkpro and..... i forgot haha. i think is sunsilk. these are the brands he condemned as the content of these shampoos are not suitable to use under s'pore's humid weather. adds humidity to ur hair, he says. before i hear this, however, my dad alrd told me not to "believe" in advertisements, becos only poor-selling products need to do advertisements, which is very true. it is like famous eateries donnid to promote how delicious their food is becos their reputation is alrd established.

and.. what else? i forgot. stm la. so anws ppl, PICK ur choice of SHAMPOO carefully!!! (btw above is his opinion, NOT MINE!)

ok, so after hearing what he said and undst the condition of my scalp, i was DESPERATE to get new shampoo that suits me. i went online to search for it and after looking at the reviews, i bought this:

Rene Furterer Shampoo for Thinning Hair

can u see the beady green particles inside? i always like to squeeze em when i'm washing my hair haha

yep! my honest opinions are: doesnt help much on preventing hair loss, but it did makes my hair looks healtheir and itchiness and flaky no more!!! =D however, i wont continue to use this shampoo la. doesnt sound as gd as i saw frm e reviews. AND its so ex for such a small bottle -_-

hope this entry helps a lil for friends who have thinning hair like me!! ;)

RE: to zhiyi

2010-10-19T23:47:00.003+08:00

WEBSITE FOR THE BROWNIE RECIPE:

http://happyhomebaking.blogspot.com/2007/07/fun-with-chocolates.html

haha. i oso dunno if she'll look into my blog not. cldnt paste this website to my tagboard so i had to create this post specially for her. anyone who's interested in baking nice brownies could look into this website too!! ;)

Oh United States of America!

2010-10-18T00:19:00.002+08:00

hello peeps! i hope u have get used to my infrequent updates of my blog now. hehe. hard to kick off the habit of being lazy!!!

one more month to USA.
and so many things and so much $$ to prepare!!!

for those of u who still havent heard abt it, i'm going thr to complete my studies and am gonna graduate thr as well. the state i'll be gg is Oklahoma. nv heard of it? so do i, haha. actl, i rather not go thr and spend all these unnecessary money. i mean, why cant we just complete our studies here?? tsk...

did my VISA (approved alrd) and bought my air tix. the major matters are settled, left with the nitty gritty things to be done, like eg shopping for winter stuff!!!! boy.. i'll be officially broke after i come back frm US, this is so worrying. OH scrap tt, i'm alrd very broke even before i'm gg over to US. alot envy me for it, but if u think abt the money tt i spilled over and owe, mayb they'd like to reconsider it. few of my frens had been very nice to offer me help on the money issues, but i rejected them. oh wells, i'm alrd on debt, so i guess the more i shldnt borrow frm frens. but i'm glad they offered. loves!

have tried to borrow whatever winter stuff i can borrow. feel so sad tt i cldnt choose wad to wear for my trip but heck man, this is not up for me to choose!!! think shilei think! u're alrd fortunate to have ppl lending you clothes so that u wont spend tt extra $!

i wana thank my neighbor yiting for lending her sweaters to me. weee!!! and my dad's fren too, for the down jacket. if u guys have any winter stuff tt u dont mind lending to me, pls lemme know ok!!! i'll be immensely grateful to u :))))

on a brighter note, i'm gonna experience alot of first times in my life!!
for my first time in my life i gotta meet snow in real life!!! lol. not in my dreams, not on the screen, but SNOW, right in front of my eyes, feeling it melting right on my fingers and lastly, playing snowball fight!!!

for the first time of my life, i'm gonna spend a traditional xmas!! not like celebrating xmas in sg, counting down with the spray of fake snow with thousands of ppl in the city, and then attending xmas parties. i'm gonna have a family xmas dinner (not w my family tho, with my fren's family who's kind enough to provide us a stay after our sch's over) and i hope thr's turkey and a real xmas tree standing in the room haha. thn we'll gonna exchange presents :)) doesnt sounds exciting but cos i've nv had a traditional xmas (with snow and all tt) before, i kind of like the idea and am looking forward to it!

for the first time of my life, i'll be spending my days with my frens at such a faraway country for such a long period!! gosh. i cldnt imagine tt!!!

for the first time of my life, i'll be leaving my family to live by myself for a mth.. i'm so gonna get HOMESICK!!! i think i'll cry thr lol. oh dear, i need to be strong!!!

for the first time of my life, i'll be living under harsh weather. for the N times of my life, i wish i have fats in me. tt cant be help. i must wear thick thick jackets!!!!

sigh a mth more... will ur miss me?? haha

you shldn't be THE benchmark

2010-08-05T13:16:00.001+08:00

some lovely dessert i baked..

my second attempt baking brownies.. and this is the best i'd ever made! i used the same recipe as before, only that this time i bake with the assistance of the electric mixer, so i guessed the electric mixer helps? i'm so surprised that after a few days, it remains crusty on the surface and still taste as great. yums ♥

my hols is coming to an end, and i've done/achieve nothing much during my hols (no work cos my boss said he got nothing for me to do, cant have fun bcos i'm broke). what a pathetic period i had, but at least i spent more time with my mummy. i'd done some reflection on myself during these days too - well u'd do that if u're spending time alone - and i realized it's so wrong of me to have somebody set as benchmark and view it on other people. it's wrong and unfair.. 1st, it would look like as if i'm still not over it (in fact, i alrd have). 2nd, it would seem like as though i'm looking for a replacement (GOSH). 3rd, not everyone is the same; comparison is out of line. another point is, i should NOT limit myself with that benchmark, and i'm trying hard not to do that. agree?

sch's starting tm.. and i'm dreading it!

disappointed

2010-08-03T13:50:00.000+08:00

some friends just make u dissapointed most of the times.
when i rmb how much i did for them in the past, and not getting it reciprocated back to me, i just feel like for fuck i fork out and give in so much to them.
mayb we shldnt be too calculative in friendships and relationships, but i feel tt it's not worth if ppl start to take you for granted.

a word of advise for myself: i shld stop being too nice to people bcos fuck, some people come to you when they need you and they'll just throw you aside when they dont need you anymore.
WE'RE NOT AN OBJECT, WE'RE HUMAN.

Weakling!!!

2010-07-30T13:01:00.000+08:00

i was sick for a week!
A WEEK!!!!

suffered from almost every illness u can think of: fever, flu, cough, stomach flu, sore throat, headache.
throughout that week i didnt dare to go out at all; seemed to myself that i locked myself up at home for good bcos one, i could save money if i didnt go out at all (broke as usual) and two, i take my time to rest since i'm having my hols and i got no work to commit. but it felt so terrible. ugh. what's worse u get emotionally unstable when u're feeling badly sick... dunno if any of u felt this way before??

AND my birthday is coming. i dunno what to do!!!!! i'm so broke that i didnt know how to organise the celebration.... cos everything u do in sg is so ex :((( if u party, u nd to have e $$$. ARGHH. tell me what should i do??

why so emotional?

2010-07-19T00:19:00.001+08:00

weekdays are meant for work and studies, and saturdays are intended for friends and dates.
sundays is the only day in the week when i can have all the time for myself.
but on a rare occasion during sundays, i feel so depressed and emotional..... like today.

it happened too sudden that i got caught up with this temperamental disease bcos nothing upsetting has happened to me at all. so unexpected, but i'm glad that it occurs during a sunday.. bcos i know how i wld behave in front of people with a mood like this.

i shut myself in e room for most of the time in the day watching Glee, and i dont feel like talking to anybody - not my mum, not my friends. and each exhaled breath feels like a silent scream.
it happened before, but that was during those depressing periods. and it's def not pms, i know it myself. then why????

girls....................................... or issit just me?

Despicable Me

2010-07-13T21:09:00.000+08:00

Here i am again!!!
this simply shows how free i am now. HAHA!

for those people who have yet to watch despicable me.. WATCH IT!! it's hilarious and cute!!! i'm deeply in love with the yellow creatures now. SO EFFING ADORABLE LA! the way they talk, behave and their expressions. omg. if thr's a figuring i wld buy em!! best if they have it in bolsters, i'll feel so happy hugging them to sleep!!! hahahaha. (tt's how crazy my crush for them) =P

hehehehe!! they look dumb la.. but i just find it cute!

anws, assignments are successfully cancelled!!! so yahooooooo~ here comes my holidays! =D

along these 9988776 days

2010-07-12T21:44:00.001+08:00

blahblahblah...
it's been like 9988776 days since i updated my blog. i know i know... but i've been either very busy or very lazy!!! haha

bcos of the prolonged period of the emptiness of e blog, i'm in a lost of whr to start for the fresh entry. let's just start with the most recent updates!

sat, 2 weeks ago - ann asked me to join her colleagues for laserquest at CDANS! i still rmb vividly the 1st time i went there. it was i think 2 years ago? when i just joined CPF and they had these inter-department activities. since i was newbie, i decided to be proactive! but i didnt really fare well back then, i suck at aiming at the enemies and suck at defending myself as well!!

but it was a nice game tt day!! even tho i dunno most of her colleagues thr, but they're fun! and we're the top team yo! got the highest score of shooting at other teams! dont play play hor! the game ended off with a small fumble: i freaking fell down and injured myself!! the other team members got freaked out but i was fine la, didnt cry or made a fuss and i continued playing!! haha.

the bruises after the clumsy fell down:

look!! i even got a heart-shape look alike bruise! lmao

terribly painful when i wash them with water. and the pain last for weeks!! arghhh. results of wearing non-friction covered shoes la!

in return, i invited sueann along to the event of the re-opening of cafe del mar! i bet we're suppose to have an enjoyable time there but bcos we rch thr way too late, free flow drinks and food is over and so are the other entertainments such as tattoos and tarot reading! wad a pity la!

:)))))

saw rozz and shan wee from 98.7fm thr too. SHAN WEE IS SO CUTE!!!!!!! omg. so tall and stunning eyes. wee-weet~ wonder is he's attached now?? haha... i wonder onli ok.. WONDER. and rozz still look as cool.

went to sing k after tt at peace center. CHEAP! shall go thr again!

sat, 3 weeks ago- zouk with stef and joel's friends. crazy night!

if u guys notice my fb status, tt was the night where the guys have some issue with the bouncers thr. hate the bouncers at zouk!!!

anws, jus in case u're wondering y i have the time n mood to blog... its becos now i'm having my study break and i MIGHT have nothing to do for the rest of the break till the next module starts!!! we're given a chance to vote against the assignments, cool! lets hope majority of my classmate vote against so that we can abolish the assignmts!! weeee!!!!

dont hope for my next update soon...haha
i'll try ok!

toothache

2010-05-06T00:08:00.001+08:00

and how i wish a tooth fairy could save me from this torment......
but *SNAP. this is reality. only a dentist and spending huge amt of money could get me outta it.

i'm very exhausted as i'm writing this, but i jus feel like writing it out before i go to bed. these few days have a torture tt u can nv imagine, nor did i imagine tt it cld be sooooooo painful too. the pain frm the toothache, i dont really even know how to describe it. all i can say is, it caused me to suffer from throbbing headaches every now n then, it makes me lose my appetite, it makes me moody, and i dont feel like talking to anyone at all. every of my energy is drained to focus the pain that i feel so weak and tired. i even feel like skipping classes cos i could hardly concentrate. the feeling jus sucks to the core!

but i'm so glad and thankful that my fren is willing to listen to my countless complaints.. gave my advices.. consoled me and all tt. really. i cldnt believe that i'm so lucky to have her around. that's to you, Jesslyn dear. i understand that sometimes it could be a nuisance to have to listen to all these.. but she has been patient enough :) and i hope that she's willing to share her problems w me too, even though i dont give gd advices.... but i'm a good listener :)

ok i'm really am gonna turn in early now. will continue again.. gd nites ppl!

rawr!

2010-05-02T23:07:00.001+08:00

the chiongsters r unleashed, again.

a lot of ppl named me "clubber" bcos i club a lot but do u realised one thing? clubber initates clubbing, but i dont. i club only if friends invited me along. and for the times where thr's no invitations, i can survive without clubbing for months. so........ yeah, i dont think i'm a clubber lo!

been back to clubbing almost every wk now, well cos sueann's frens invited me. oh again i must emphasize, i hardly have any friends who club frequently. haha. anws, her friends invited me again next wed and sat to club, i hope there arent any more to come bcos i'm so so broke. and for my clubber bff sueann, bet u can see tt this party animal is unleashed again! RAWR!

so looking forward to 18th of May. come baby come.. lemme embrace u in my arms!!!!

dont be so curious about my baby.
he's jus e amt i anticipate in my acc.
lol

give me a sign.

2010-04-26T20:44:00.001+08:00

my face looks like shit now. LIKE SHIT!

went for facial just now ard my area and i cld feel the tears welling up in my eyes every now and then as the aunty used EVERYstrength in effort to squeeze out the dirt frm the pores. in the midst of e session i cldnt bear it any more, i whimpered in agony but the aunty pressed on, saying that it's for my own good. right. but wtf, i really felt like running away frm the beauty salon, leaving my belongings behind. finally the whole thing was over, and i survived e whole torment of prickling pain and excruciating pinching of my face.

but my face looks like crap now!!! *CRIES*
all the reddish obvious blotches on my skin and the swellings.. FUGLY! dont scream if u happened to c me one day, i'd shuff my fist into ur mouth haha!

sian. the condition of my skin now makes me more depressed, after when things happened.
i guess i'd have to be myself, i dunno why the fuck do i have to pretend at all.
but i have to curb myself a bit too, sigh so contradicting.
give me sign.

Why am I single?

2010-04-21T11:07:00.006+08:00

This question was asked by my poly friend after my best friend got attached, though his actual question was:

"When will it be your turn?"

now that, is a question asked many times by ppl around me. my ans is, i dunno, for 1st thing 1st, i dont have any guy i really like now, and for the guys out there who like me or liked me before, i just couldnt be in a relationship which i know sooner or later i will hurt you.
cos i know how is it like to be hurt. cos i dont wana repeat the same mistake again.
not tt difficult to get what i mean rite.

a lot of people have been telling me that i have high expectations. . . . . . eh-hem, serioussssssssly i dont feel so myself. i just want to be w a guy whom i feel so comfortable with, who can make me happy (this is v impt cos laughing is like a daily supplement of ecstasy to me, i couldnt live without it!), who is mature and understandable..... alright i'm not gonna fill in the details of my expectations of my ideal bf. as you can see, what i ask for is generally what all girls would ask for what. as for appearance wise...... i do have my expectations but, i'm gonna be defensive about it, do YOU expect me to ACCEPT any guys - short, skinny, fat, stinky, or hairy - to be my bf? (i dont mean to offend anyone k) so stop telling me tt i have high expectations! tsk.

what about those guys who i liked, what are the outcomes of it? yeah, i'm just like those little girls who stand at one corner, peeking at e boys they like, who wouldnt dare to express their affection to them. 暗恋 is the word. i'm just too proud and shy to show them that i like em (..alright, face it shilei, u're a coward too..) some girls would flirt or express interest to the guys they like, but i'm not. in fact, i'm quite the opposite bcos i dont want tt guy to know that i like him; i would appear to be nonchalant abt his existence and would treat him indifferently but damn, my affection for him deep inside my heart is so intense than u can imagine!

i guess that's y guys tt i like are never really close with me, given my attitude to them. i mean, even if they do like me, they would also feel intimidated by my behavior that they wouldnt dare to approach me right!

but i'm trying to change alrd. i know i'm too prideful, but there are some things that are worth to put ur pride aside.. nevertheless, darn it, there's still a limit to give into it ok!! bleah

on top of that... i'm also too afraid of failures. there are times i took up courage and give it a shot but, i would withdraw at the critical last second, which at the edge i can only see the last of it. then, i feel the regrets sinking in, but it's alrd too late. what can i do?
i can only hope that the next one is better...

here, i have explained my singlehood, and i also want to declare that i am NOT gonna be attached until i find someone who i really love and vice-versa and when the situation allows (i'm fcuking broke now, i have enough troubles coming from money). dont ask me anymore on this topic, it's said n done here.

"Being single used to mean that nobody wanted you. Now it means you're pretty sexy and you're taking your time deciding how you want your life to be and who you want to spend it with."

- Sex and the City
=)=)=)

Oprah Winfrey's View on Men

2010-04-05T10:59:00.000+08:00

i'm too bored at work so i decided to blog on this, which i came across in my my inbox. interesting to read it time and again becos i find it so true!!

Oprah's View on Men, here it goes:

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cuteabout baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals. Look for someone complimentary, not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Pink Volkswagen Beetle

2010-04-01T10:53:00.000+08:00

I was taking a ride home in the bus one night and when it stopped at the traffic junction, i saw this pink beetle beside it....................................

oh my effing god.... SO PRETTY RITE???????? and it's in baby pink!

i wanan own this kinda car in future. like... qte a far future away zzz. but actually i like a lot of cars, like lexus (dunno wad model) and mercz (also dunno wad model) and benz. haha! but 1st i need to have driving license la!

Simple Saturday

2010-03-30T00:26:00.002+08:00

No extravagent programs.
No squeezing thru' the crowd at town.
No huge bunch of friends.

just a simple saturday with a close fren (and neighbor) spent, chilling and hanging around at less populated areas :)
and it was great.

sometimes we just need to slow down our pace on weekends, rather than bustling around AGAIN since tt's what we do on weekdays.. esp those of whom are working full time. occasionally i'd love to spend my day away outta town (too bad i cant drive), i.e. secluded places of sg or explore ard sg. tt's y i kept emphasizing to ting that if only i have driving license and i own a car! sadly, tt's not gonna happen so soon :(

and so it's also a day filled w good food. nothing luxurious.. after lunch we headed down to clark quay and i suggested to go to the Japanese market - Meidi-ya - at the Liang Court! WOOOOTS. i LOVE jap food. love love love. from their tid-bits, their snacks, the alcohol (which is well, the CHOYA hees), their meals, to their desserts, except their beer. Japanese are sooooooo fortunate.. envy la. it's not my 1st time to medi-ya, but i'm still very fascinated by the wide range of stuff they sell. both of us were like awed every now n then, all the "WAHs" and the "OMGs"; ting said every 3 steps she took she had to stop and turn back to me as i wowed at the food thr HAHA. i was fascinated by the tid-bits and snacks while ting was fascinated by the low-calory food thr haha. wah, by the look of it, in comparison i'm so unhealthy!

spotted their signboard for delivery.. so convenient!! it is for customers to purchase cartons of drinks or maybe like a big quantity of food (i guess so la) to be delivered to their doorsteps so tt they cld save e trouble to carry them home themselves. budden also abit unecessary for s'pore markets, cos they're all located in e neighborhoods.. unless u're preparing to take refuge la.

at the end of e day i cldnt resist the temptation and bought soba and rice crackers home! hehe. ting bought nothing at all (i think her weak spot is beauty products, while mine is food). or issit tt she's left penniless? haha. i cldnt wait to tear off the packet of rice crackers and nom on them.. which i did. i think i pratically chomp it almost too eagerly =X

Photos of the day =D

KOI bubble tea!! oh mine is peach green tea with their grassjellies (ting's reccomendation) I LIKE!!! u guys shld try the grassjelly instead of the zhen zhu. it's really nice!!!

chilling by the riverside

clark quay looks great during daytime too. v colorful

check this out. they have BK bar now?!?!

foooood!

the instant soup

still on the soup. ting likes it that they display the amount of calories clearly on the package!

they have INSTANT CLAMS too! omg!

the clams inside!

i wish i cld buy this crabbie home

cute packaging for sweets! i would devour u!!!

tryna capture the beautiful sunset.. but my cam too lousy la GAHHH.

adorable cat we stumbled into while walking back hm!! CUTE!

love at first sight

2010-03-20T14:57:00.002+08:00

have you ever met a stranger, standing close to you, and when u look up and your eyes meet with his/hers, you blushed and could feel your heart beats faster than you can imagine?
thn you would feel very self-conscious about yourself, and would constantly check whether he/she is still around?
that you wouldnt dare to look into his/her face again, bcos you were shy or too afraid of revealing your feelings?

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what if the person you were checking with, is constantly checking on you too?? would you regret letting him/her passed by, without another look at him/her again?

Prudential Sucks!

2010-03-20T14:08:00.001+08:00

Crap!!
i thought i could earn like near to a hundred bucks when my fren recommended me this events job for 3 days, which now the salary reduced to half of what i expected because i quitted halfway through doing it!

well, it started out w a fren of mine recommending me this job with pay of $8/hr. i agreed to take up this job immediately and called the person-in-charge for more details. upon the brief rundown of the job details through the phone, my heart sank a bit because the company we're to work for is PRUDENTIAL. damn, i know how most ppl feel towards prudential the same way i feel towards it but... it's jus a 3-days work with a not-bad pay isn't it? the job scope is to approach ppl and get their details (tis is so brief) and i asked the person if there's any target to hit. ok, this is the WHAT the issue is about. he said he dont think so. thn i felt better and so i took up this job, and even recommended my frens to join me.

on the actual day of briefing however, the information was too much for us to take. we're to visit local unis and promote their new-launched management associate programme to the graduates there, and get interested parties to fill in their details. the condition of the pay is, we need to get 60 ppl per day to get $8/hr, otherwise 30 ppl per day to get $6/hr pay, or i think it'll be no pay at all. i felt deceived, but still i agreed to work somehow. nevertheless, i feel tt it's impossible to get so many ppl to listen to us on this goddamn prudential programme, esp when it leaves such bad impression to ppl.

on the 1st day of work, i only managed to get 30 ppl (and i didnt even promote anything about prudential; we just tell these ppl tt it's a survey) a lot of which contains fake contacts. on the 2nd day we gave up and called to terminate contract, but we managed to finish 2nd day of work when the person hinted us to complete tt day's work and tt we might get our pay. i even dialled my frens up to obtain both their and their friends' particulars to achieve 30 ppl, when the person actually emphasized on getting interested parties instead. haha.. WHO CARES????? given prudential's bad reputation, it so hard to be motivated to practically promote their programme lorhs... and ppl dont even want to hear anything tt's related to it. SEE LA? tsk!!

i hope we will still get paid for these 2 days work lorh. if not i would really feel cheated when e person told us we will get paid by forcing ourselves to complete the work!
and i would never ever work for prudential again! pui!

such an irony

2010-03-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

OH.
i just realized how ironic it is when i wrote about the previous post after the stress factor post. lols.
but i do feel better now tt i wrote it out it and also complained to my friends...
Thanks for listening and consoling me, suggesting ideas too. :)

when everything just caves in

2010-03-09T18:52:00.004+08:00

MDIS Bachelor of Arts, Degree in Mass communications of Oklahoma University
is such a money sucker.

how much more have i yet to pay? how long can i last with the limiting finances??

1stly i fret over the school fees, which is the main factor that is suffocating my whole family. this huge amount of fees do nothing but creates arguments, anxiety, stress, distress, poorness, and tears.
....... a lot of times i wonder in order for myself to further my studies, is it worthwhile? was it a wrong decision after all to be in this course, to pay for what's more than we can afford? i've thrown it all away to study; i quitted my job and gave up the carefree life which i dont have to worry about money. i didnt realize how huge the impact will be and how much hardship i'll be suffering, until days after my classes began. i have walked this far, but yet i feel myself becoming weaker and more jaded while i walk down, so powerless against the strain of the burden.

2ndly, which is the secondary concern, is about my residency trip to oklahoma at end of this yr. this, is not subsidised by school and we have to fork out our own $ to pay for e air tix, the living expenses accomodations and all. AND it's not included in the sch fees. so it's like we are paying extra for it. thanks to it, i have more burdens now
--> no, i dont feel like borrowing e $$ frm my parents yet again. no, i cant afford it myself.
then how else am i gonna raise e $$ myself??!?!!

unless i tio 4d or toto. unless i sell my body for it (ERK, this is so cheap! NO I WONT DO TT, no worries) or unless i engage in some illegal activities. and unless i opt for a loan.

then.............. it dawned to me that, it's true u cannot do without money, true that it's difficult to resist it's temptation, true that with money, almost everything is possible to achieve, and true that money is the one of the most important assets in the world.

when i was younger, i rmb how shallow and materialistic i felt to those ppl were to think like this.

now i know. now i understand.
and now i become one of them..

Stress Factors

2010-02-28T16:41:00.005+08:00

............. guess what?
after i studied sooooooo much for the exam the prof decided to select only like 2 chapters out of 8 chapters and the exam paper only comsists of TWO frigging questions. yeah. i thought i were seeing wrongly, and i re-read the whole paper again. anws, it's just a piece of exam paper, so yeah.. i couldnt be wrong about it! TSK. (but the paper was easy la.... heh...)

anw, rmb i said i will share my prof's website here? unfortunately... the website i copied down is wrong. thn i tried googling it but i just cant find it. oh well.... mayb i'll ask from my frens to see if they copied it down too. if not.. thn just forget it la.

however, i got 1 website here tt's quite interesting. it's inside my textbook and it helps to calculate your stress score in regards to your stress level. Want to know how stress you are and how it affects ur health conidtion? Check this out to determine your stress levels! http://www.stresstips.com/lifeevents.htm

the last time in lectures i calculated mine with a longer lists of stress events than e website provides given by our prof.. and my test scores are 400 and over, which means my life is undergoing a major transition and i'm feeling stressed out over it. mind you, that score is the highest and most severe one that leads to stress-related disorders which are very problematic. OMG... mayb tt explains why i'm getting skinnier?

this time i calculated my stress scores at this above website and i got a completely opposing results:

Your score is 102
According to the Holmes & Rahe* statistical prediction model your score means a relatively low amount of life change and a low susceptability (about 30% probability) to stress-related illness. However please keep in mind that there are many variables that interact on health including positive factors such as support from family, friends or work associates.

GEE. mayb it's cos the lists are not long enough? cos i feel that in each individual's life there are so many and different life events that is possible to affect the stress level. anws, i feel that this is just a rough gauge of your stress scores. so ppl, take care and be optimistic to the stress events and learn some strategies to cope with your stress! i should try to do tt too!

i want a fufilling hols spent

2010-02-25T21:29:00.000+08:00

SAT i'll be having my exam, and YES i know i shld be studying hard now since thr's jus 1 more day left but my brain is protesting... so i tut of having a short break to surf net and stuff.. and updating my blog!

for e past 3 days i'd been mugging e whole day in je's lib and i am soooo grateful tt ting accompanied me if not i'll be terribly bored! really cannot imagine myself studying alone in the quiet space thr. not to mention of my gregarious nature hehe.

i have alrd been thinking how to spent my hols away when my mind drifted off to day dreaming halfway thru mugging haha. it's either i'd be working my ass off, or i'd be hanging w some friends whom i havent meet up with a loooong time. miss them so!

AND.. i wana party! my break from clubbing is long enough to for me sustain... 2 mths! i want to shake shake dance dance drink drink la! and yeah... shake e stress away. WOOOTS.

wish me gd luck for sat's exam yo!

dejavu?

2010-02-23T00:16:00.000+08:00

beng said he dreamt tt my blog layout changed and according to his dream, my tagboard changed from left to right side of the blog.

so beng, does this seems like dejavu to you? =X

我爱他

2010-02-21T23:20:00.001+08:00

我爱他 by 丁当 (song in 下一站，幸福)

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

如果还有遗憾是分手那天

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来

若那一刻重来我不哭

让他知道我可以很好

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Love this song loads!!!!!! gosh a must-sing-song at kbox!

reincarnation eh?

2010-02-21T22:58:00.003+08:00

deleted previous post accidentally when i wanted to edit it... zzzz!
hmm satisfied with this new layout... but i'm wondering shld i insert a tagboard at the side bar like before since ppl who visited my blog are able to comment on my posts now? mayb u guys cld share ur opinions.. :)

anws.. was researching on this news about serial killer Ted Bundy back at the 1980's for my assignment when i stumbled across this photo. it immediately struck me of the close resemblance of one of the starlet in gossip girls.

Leighton Meester from GG

One of the victims of Bundy in his kill spree

look at their eyes and lips.... i find that them look so alike! well, mayb except for the chin part. so creepy!

golden lovies

2010-02-08T11:44:00.002+08:00

TADAH~

homemade pineapple tarts...... by yiting and i!!! thank u gal for letting me to join e baking session!

somehow the food tasted especially yummy when you put in effort and do-it-yourself. at the end of baking, i feel so tired and sleepy that i dont have the mood at all to appreciate the gold and pretty looking tarts and the goodness as i munched them.
now i feel glad to share these goodies with my friends :)

on e side note, beng helped us buy ba kua from lim zhi yuan and even delivered to my hse. thank u beng!! i return ur kindness w my pineapple tarts and a prawn my mummy cooked! hahahaaha.

p.s.
oh. i blogged this when i came back from sch, not after the lessons end but becos i went at e wrong time. class starts at 1230pm but i rushed down at 830am. feel so blur and stupid.. dammit!

幸福的原点

2010-02-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

Hi My Sweetheart episode 14 marks the end of the whole drama!! this is e shortest drama i'd ever seen. feel that it's a pity to end it so early budden that's what makes it more interesting and appealing cos it's short and sweet =D

there's this line which the female lead mentioned in the show.... "让我们回到幸福的原点" kinda reminisce my very own nostalgia for some little moments spent with some ppl. i felt very 幸福 back thn.. but it seems like this 幸福 costs a price to pay for, and it's like 幸福 doesnt last forever. thn i got skeptical of the existence of it.. hmmm....

mayb it just takes some time for it to deliver..

shopping la!

2010-01-27T22:54:00.001+08:00

phew! came back from shopping today. had been shopping lately for CNY at bugis.. i think it's the only place i know for bargaining the prices with the boss and enjoy discounted price at my friend's wife's stall =D

bought a denim leggings! <3 i had been wanting to own a leggings since dunno when and now i finally found it (tsk... with bargained price too) !! looks like those normal jeans but it hugs tightly to my skin.. not very used to body con la. and then i bought a jacket the same as jiana, a very high waist trousers and a dress (discounted again)... will post the photos of me in these one day hehe! really satisfied w e cny buyings :P

OH oh.. did i mention how long had i been holding back to shop?? like months!!! MONTHS! in the past i used to shop every month ok.. so can u imagine i havent been shopping for the past months, trying to hold back from spendin $$ and i even need to accompany friends and SEE them SHOP. so itchy lorh. now i finally had e excuse to shop for cny with a lil of my pay... so poor thing hor. =(
oh ya and i still owe some ppl $$.... dont worry k.. i'll return em back to u guys before cny, after i got my pay.

so wad's jiana's carplate huh? mayb i can return the $$ easily after i tio.. HAHAHAHA.

Drive Safely!

2010-01-25T22:39:00.001+08:00

"Please do take care of yourself while you’re at Aus. Stay away from danger, eat regularly, drive safely............"

one day later after i wrote the letter to Jiana, she was alrd not driving safely at Aus. LOLS. i think she need to practice more on driving!

Looney FB

2010-01-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

i'm trying to upload our video at facebook for umpteen times but i just couldnt get it done.... so infuriating!!!

Stupid FB!

BON VOYAGE JIANA

2010-01-24T23:14:00.002+08:00

Just saw this girl for one last time before we get to see her again after a year in Australia. intended to send her at the airport but she and her mum refuses to tell us the departure time so no choice angelis and i went down to her hse before she leaves to the airport. chatted a while and gave her hugs =)

i feel like crying while saying goodbye to her... we always hang out as a grp - her, sueann, angelis and i - we went out shopping, chilling, clubbing, gossiping, travelling and stuff. we always had our time laughing our heads off and kept each other company. with her ard, thr's bound to have laughter. now tt she's leaving to begin a new phase of her life, our grp will be short of 1 person tt can never be replaced. i'm gonna miss her so much!!

here's what i wrote for her:

Dearest Lao Gao:

I will miss you…

Miss hearing your laughter
Miss squabbling with you (verbally)
Miss calling you Lao Gao
Miss teasing and making fun of you
Miss hearing you swear “妈的!!” and slamming the table lol
Miss hanging out together
Miss you calling me ah gao
Miss the gossips sessions
Miss celebrating birthdays together
Etc……………………………………

Can’t believe you’re flying off tonight!! Never in my life did my closest friends left to a faraway country for such long period, so yeah… it feels so surreal. As you already know, we wanted to send you off at airport but your lips are sealed, so was your mum’s haha. Angelis and I had made a video specially for you, and Sueann wrote you a letter. Here I am writing to you too, cos’ there’s words yet to be spoken :)

Please do take care of yourself while you’re at Aus. Stay away from danger, eat regularly, drive safely, and try to make friends around (I believe you will) so as to enrich your stay there. Don’t forget to play while working hard for your studies cos’ all work no play makes U a dull lady! Oh, hope you can get a BF too - that’s what adds a tinge of romance and fun in your life, anyway… it’s been a long while since you tasted love, so when fate and destiny arrive at your doorstep, don’t reject ok!!!! Don’t be too picky ah! I will be damn happy for you!

Forget us not and must remember to keep us updated of your life there! Lets jiayou together for our studies!!! Happy CNY in advance to you and your family and see you app. In 1 year’s time!!

It’s a goodbye but it’s not the end…

the vid i mentioned thr was made by angelis and i.. i'm not gonna upload it here cos thr's a lot of hideous photos inside so yeah.. only for the 7 sisters to view =P

so Bon voyage Jiana..... i hope u have the time of your life there

girl molested by 4 guys part 2

2010-01-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

oh so the "girl" molested by 4 guys is actually a shemale.

...................... i feel like kanna cheated.

CHEY!!!! if in this case i'm not really bothered about it. those trans so qiao one. mayb "she" was feeling sexually aroused secrectly inside?? hohohoho.

wadever. the indians/bangalahs still disgust me tho.

Bikini Girl Molested by 4 Guys

2010-01-06T19:23:00.001+08:00

i'm sure some of u saw the news about a girl molested by 4 guys at the sentosa countdown party.

watch it on youtube here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TtIR-Xgx5do

my comments on this issue are:

1) nobody wanted to help her probably they think she's just some attention-seeking whore,

2) those onlookers who took the vids down prob thought that this is what she wants - by making a scene to grab some attention yo!

3) r those molesters bangalahs?!?!?!?!!?!?! fucking gross!

4) can see in the vid that she's trying to get away..!

5) even if these ppl wldnt dare to help her from the molesters, they shld at least pull her down n save her from the "crossed the border line" gropers. did u see how one of em grope her neh neh???!!! omg. there r 8 balls to kick altogether.

6) thr r like a crowd beneath the stage, so if they want some live action towards these 4 guys, i'm sure there is nothing to fear of standing up for the girl and the perverts will feel sorry about it. but seems like most of the crowd thr r perverts too, cos only perverts will enjoy looking at perverts doing perverted stuff.

7) i'm sure there r girls nearby who witness this incident. mayb it's not shown in the vid, but how can u just stand thr without lending a hand to e girl and disregard this matter and join in the fun of recording the whole process down?? what if u r the one who are being molested or worst, raped but nobody nearby care about helping or saving you, and even mockingly record e vids down?? what's wrong w these ppl??? ridiculous!!

8) some ppl even commented that she deserved it.. what. ur heart made of stone issit?! or actually, u horny ppl wanted to have a go with tt girl as well???

.......... i think tt's all for my comments for now. what's ur say?

persoanlly, i feel a connection to this news bcos i was molested before too. i'm sure so do alot of my female frens la. some girls wld react to it almost immediately, but i think most of us will appear lost and shock for a moment before rationalizing what to do next or before we cld gather our thoughts. by then, it was too late. regarding to that video, tt girl must be lost while trying to find ways to get outta it. worse is that nobody helped her at all. 'm so ashamed of singaporeans!! zzz

oh i feel a bit scary too cos in e 1st place i wanted to go to sentosa as well for e countdown. but...... i dont think i wld dare to expose my bikini?? dunno la. cos if exposing it will meant inviting molesters like em. budden, i dont have a fab bod too. so mayb i wont attract molesters?? LOL

Happy 10th yr Anniversary!

2010-01-05T01:38:00.000+08:00

In a blink of an eye and 10 years passed just like that.
From secondary 1 till now, the friendship between us grew stronger each yr as we experienced fun and laughter, tears and sadness, pain and anger throughout this long and memorable period.

** every gap is patched with forgiveness
every smile is bestowed with genuine bliss
every moment is so precious that we treasure it so sincerely
the bond that ties us in
instilled deep-rooted in our heart
and with faith to our friendship
we will never be apart! :) **

i'm so glad that we made it this far, and may there be more anniversaries to come for our long-lasting friendship until eternity. to my sisters: Angelis, Bee lye, Michelle, Jiana, Jiani, Sueann, Zhiyi.. CHEERS!!!

** this poem is actually written by me, yes.. me. took me quite sometime to write it down lorh! so got xing rite? teehehe ;)

ok i'm actually being very brief on the above dedication for this 10th yr anni to my dear friends, but but my head is empty for now after offering the words to the poem =X
so now, may i present to you some photos of my 7 sisters (even the search of e photos took me a while cos thr's not much of it in my lappie)

ermm cos i dont hav e sec sch photos here. so these photos r actually from the gatherings we attended in the past heh. enjoy!

2008 class gathering

outing w some of them

a trip back to sch to visit our teachers

chi new yr 2008

haha! ann's head is flattened

neoprints. as u can see v hard to squeeze in all's heads lols

another one

cheeky!

i wana meetup with these sweeties again soon!!

NY resolutions

2009-12-31T15:05:00.004+08:00

(extracted frm DailyWorldBuzz.com)

Top 10 New Year’s Resolutions

1 Get into shape / go to the gym more

2 Save money

3 Go on a diet

4 Give up smoking

5 Assess work/life balance

5 Learn a new skill

7 Be kinder to myself

8 Give up/ cut alcohol intake

9 Give up / eat less chocolate

10 Clear wardrobe on eBay

Most Broken New Year’s Resolutions

1 Give up smoking

2 Get into shape / go to the gym more

3 Clear wardrobe on eBay

4 Be kinder to myself

5 To go on a diet / Give up or eat less chocolate

6 Learn a new skill

7 To give something back to the community

8 Give up or cut alcohol intake / Join or maintain my Twitter/Facebook/Blog

9 Assess work/life balance

10 Save money

....................................... so whatz e use of ny resolutions?

emo momo

2009-12-28T00:48:00.002+08:00

i dunno y i'm feeling super emotional and depressed, but it's definitely not due to the pms cos it's way over.

like.. when i'm watching dramas or some tv shows and when i heard abt my frens' heart breaking news i feel like crying along with them. or during those late nights when i gt sleepless i feel like dissolving in tears with my pillow, and yet i held my tears back from flowing down my cheeks. what's with me?!??!?!

mayb i'm trying to be strong for too long. i feel strained.
mayb the year is ending. i feel sad cos i dont think anything is accomplished.
mayb it's the regrets. i dont see opportunities ever materialize in front of me again..
mayb.........................................

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it's all of the mayb's.

if u ask me what's my new year resolutions, i have loads of them.
but i'm afraid tt if i list them down, none of them comes true again.
jus like this yr
u wana know? i will list them out here just for fun, but i wont take them to heart seriously.
cos.................................................... i.hate.dissapointments.

talk abt club

2009-12-27T01:15:00.000+08:00

suppose to join my classmates @ zouk tonite but as usual, i'm broke.. plus i wanna save e $$ for new yr countdown, which is also ann's bdae countdown and her bdae celebration!

xmas eve night was spent unsatisfactorily ): spent hours to queue at butter fac and we cldnt get into the Bump room, which plays all the hip hop n rnb music. full house they say, which honestly, is quite expected. so we were onli allowed in the Fash room, the music sucks to the core. and thn we went hm after tt. WAD A LOUSY NIGHT.............!!!!!!!!!

taken while queueing

Rebel, where we intentionally plan to go but didnt go cos the entry fee's too ex, was packed tt night too, tt's wad i heard so. if not, we'll be spending out night thr and probably be having the fun of our life! the 1st time i went thr, it didnt leave me a gd impression cos e music wasnt tt gd tt night and the crowd was a bit crazy.

the 2nd time i went thr, the music was sooooo good tt i cld jus get high without the effects of alcohol and dance till 5am. the crowd thr contains mostly guys (tt's wad's not so impt), but the THING is, thr r quite a number of hot guys yo!! hahaha. i hope i dont sound like some despo bitch. it's just that normally when i go club i dont really look at guys. but tt night thr were enough to lay my eyes on!

however we nd to defense ourselves a lot against e guys too, and tt place is really ve small. and the bartender is a rude slacker. i guess that's all for the drawbacks? the entry fee is $20 w 2 free drinks, comparable to e price @ dblo cos at OO it's $15 for e entry fee but no free drinks provided. no cheapo alcohol though, sian. will go down to OO 1 last time for the cheap alcohol b4 it closes down on 2 Jan!! i wana drink till gao gao!

have no regrets

2009-12-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

deleted previous post cos i was thinking over the mistakes i made.. and i pondered abt it so often that it makes me wonder how would i face the decision again if i wld given a chance.
will i repeat the same mistake again?
will i open the door and welcome them, to prove myself wrong?
or will i just walk away from all of these and pretend to be oblivious abt it?

my ans to tt now is to prove myself wrong, give myself and others a chance, so that i will not regret like today.

i always thought that to be fair to others, i made myself known that thr's always a somebody in my mind, so that at least i'm being clear to them that i'm not gonna cheat ppl's feelings or to pretend like as if i am interested. i didnt know until today that by doing so is just too naive and rational to distinct my feelings or rather choices. i dunno how u wld define this correct or wrong, it is just how u perceive it as. to me, i regretted, so i deemed it as a mistake. god knows what will happen if i accept; mayb i'll be happier now or mayb not. at least, there's no regrets.

now tt i've wasted enough time, i need to move on................................

and i hope it's not too late to realize that

on a brighter note, my fren went to US las vegas's disneyland during hols (envy right? sigh) and i requested her to buy me Victoria's Secret body spray from thr cos it's sold cheaper. (if i'm working now i'd probably ask her to get me some Coach purses or bags back, but too bad i'm not!!) she was unsure which flavor of e body spray i want so she bought a collection of flowery VC body sprays back!!!!

loves!!!!
i totally love flowery scent :) thanks liana!!

and so i always spray on myself, with my own anna sui perfume, before i went out. it just feels so gd to begin ur day with great fragance on ur body!!! =D

on top of that, xmas exchange this year has been quite fufilling :) i'm so grateful for all the gifts (esp the ones which they spent lotsa time on) the sincerity is deeply appreciated! i hope they like my gifts too!!

early sleep, sweet dreams

2009-12-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

jus came back from buying xmas prezzie!

i am soooooooooo freaking tired but i need to read finish a chapter of my textbook before i go to sleep. taking a small break now before i continue to read again sigh..

sch started off w a ve tight and busy schedules: lessons from monday to sat (like wtf! but luckily i onli had 1 sat left), quizzes and homeworks everyday.. busy is good but it jus worries me that i aint keeping up with the class. i felt like there's too much information thrown to me and i am expected to learn sooooo many stuff within such short period. and the prpblem is, i got no time to double my efforts even. GOSH.

i will retun to update about my clubbing night at Rebel (it was fun!) when i have e time again.
till then, toodles!

procrastinate.OVER.

2009-12-10T18:16:00.001+08:00

i hate to think of tml.
cos classes begin tml.

so i had been dragging my time to do a list of things i ought to do but when sch reopens, but i MUST stop this procrastination and get my brain juice flowing. OH before i do tt i must sweep off the dust or moulds or wadever that grows on my brain over this period of time when it actually malfunctions.

....................... y do i feel like it's a dooms-day tml?

ARGGhhhHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

new look ;)

2009-12-09T00:25:00.001+08:00

snipped away my long hair today!!!!
my hair used to look like this:

notice the thin hair ends. ugly! and oso my side parting heh. (omg i realized tt my frills looked like a bib -_-)

now my hair looks like this!

i started playing w my hair thn, cos v excited with new hair style la. lols

trying to act cute here =X

hair all tied back to pony tail.

yeah a different new look for me. =D

i was in a shock when i saw my reflection at the salon earlier on. sooooo not used to it! i feel as tho another girl was looking back at me but it's ME. yeah well, after sometime i feel ok but not really adapt to it yet. ann said i look younger n cuter. yes cuter. CUTE is nv in my dictionary ok. i nv try to act cute in my 22 yrs of life. cant believe i'm trying it now at age 22. wth.

endure w me la =P i know some frens out thr cannot tolerate cute-ness esp by me but it's like i myself oso cannot tahan lorh.

jus wanna play a cute-ness for a while can HAHA.

what's more to suffice the stress on me.

2009-12-08T00:36:00.001+08:00

"Holy cow!!" when i realized that i really lost track of time, the after effect when i spent most of my holidays at home that i wasn't aware of the date and day at all.

my sch reopens on 11 Dec, and just ytd i realized that the day actually starts on this fri. panic panic panic. so many things to be done are yet to be carried out, and my mind still stays rooted for the holiday mood that i wasnt prepared to go sch @ all. i feel like a kid dreading for sch reopen!!

to make it worse, the course materials prepared for us b4 lessons begin feels like a time-setting bomb, only in this scenario it is a day-setting bomb cos as each day nears fri, the stress and anxiety builds higher n higher. i read through it and i cld feel the horror seeping through. dont wanna go into details cos the more i describe it the more worriment i get. so 2 'd's to describe this module (Research and Methodology) i'm having next: Difficult and Demanding. =X

another perturbing issue is abt financial.
but shall end this subject here cos even though i let it known, i dont wanna talk more abt it.
i have ppl ard me telling me that they're experiencing e same thing but i really couldnt see it on em.
it's even more frustrating when some of them dont understand my situation at all. zzzzzzzzzz.

lalala

2009-12-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

a boring post here. read if u feel obliged to :X

i think i'm getting sick after e trip frm hortpark (canopy walk) ytd + the night movie + the sleepover @ my hse with angelis and ann. feeling drowsy even though i slept and my nose is like a running tap now.

my first visit with angelis n ann to the hortpark is nothing much. walked ard.. saw a few interesting things and picturesque spots. we proceeded to the canopy walk after that even though we were a bit tired alrd, and thn rest at another park (pss i forgot e name of it). took a couple of unglam + funny photos thr and we return back to hortpark again. mid-way walking back, it started to rain and all 3 of us had to take shelter under my little umbrella haha.

we went hm to rest b4 catching e movie at night. New Moon yeah. it's nt bad la, but thn a bit confusing if you yet read e book cos tt's what i experienced. ann said thy left out a lot of parts. oh btw, ann was super excited abt watching new moon lorh. she was also making a lot of sounds during e movie! like all the squeals, gasps etc. noisy! haha.

after the movie we get gg to my hse cos they're having a sleepver @ my hse!!!! whooopy!!
i made fondue for them... catch movies.. as usual we make jokes and gossip all tt.. it was fun :) a pity my rm is a bit cramp due to my queen sized bed la. shall do it again yo!!

Birthday Celebration for 老猴

2009-12-04T15:25:00.001+08:00

a small surprise for her after our night @ dblo haha!

cldnt light up the candles cos there are fans everywhr. she's supposed to eat it too but she said she was too full so it was discarded aft tt. nvm! there's more bananas to come in her future bdaes!

our plans to sabo jiana for the celebration of her bdae were thwarted. lucky for her!!

#1 to make her drunk cos we nv see her got wasted before.

she said she laosai earlier on so we were being easy on her. but beelye got high and crazy that she kept forcing the alcohol down jiana's throat. haha. here's e evidence of her being helpless and exasperated:

haha! she was referring to beelye, telling me that the lady beside her crazy alrd.

thn she kept pointing at her head mouthing the words, "siao alrdy siao alrdy.." HAHA!

this is the drink bee lye ordered for her:

gosh. they asked me to help jiana drink finish but i drank a sip and i buay tahan alrd. so strong!!! and it doesnt taste good either. poor jiana has to drink finish. luckily i'm nt e bdae girl if not i think by the end of the night i will be unconscious!

#2 make her to play some games and forfeits

which we didnt carry out tt night too. anws she not sporty enough oso. so the rest of the night we dance and drink, drink and dance................. and kanna slaps from her! apparantly when she gt a bit drunk she becomes so violent can. she should be the one getting slaps by us lorh!!!!!! zzzzzz.

happy birthday to lao gao!!

Colorgenics Personality test

2009-12-04T01:15:00.000+08:00

try it here: http://colorgenicstest.com/

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

Your involvements seldom measure up to your high emotional expectations and your 'needs' to be 'loved' and 'cared for' have in the past often led to extreme disappointment. But a change is in the wind - make a firm decision to start anew. Just 'think' it..and it will happen.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You don't like conflict and you endeavour to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.

海派甜心

2009-12-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

I'm watching this show now!!!

seriously, u guys shld watch this. frigging hilirious!!!!! 1st time i watched taiwanese drama i can laugh non-stop lorh. xiao zhu's image in the show is super geek but at the same time uber idiotic and funny.

haha. super idiotic!

for those who still dunno abt this website, u can watch it at http://www.funshion.com/. they have all the latest dramas, movies and stuff. u nd to download the software for free to watch them but other than that, it's really hassle-free and easy to use. the download progress is pretty fast too! :)

a reunion w colleagues

2009-12-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

i'm writing this while waiting for yiting.. zzzzz. i'm supposed to go her hse after she bathe. but she's taking a loooooong time!

had our bbq session held @ my fren's fren condo beside parkway parade. the experience as compared to bbq @ east coast is much more comfy haha!

anws, didnt expect tt it'll be fun during e bbq on sat with my ex-colleagues :) i thought i will be a bit left out, after all, it's been quite sometime since i last gather with em together and i missed a lot of inside jokes and the latest gossips in office. but surprsingly, they didnt chat abt the "office" topic much (cos usually they wld) and fortunately my frequency is capable enough to keep up with their craps. hehe.

the bbq food, which one of them prepared herself, is awesome! =D kind of admire her capability to prepare most of the food herself: satays, chicken wings, stingrays, prawns etc. cos i'm usually too lazy to do that haha. thumbs up! oh btw, this bbq tastes much better than my poly gathering bbq @ east coast. and even cheaper lorhs. wth.

i'm searching for more photos on food but i can only find prawn. we seasoned it with sambal chilli, chilli padi.. er.. wadever chilli sauce we have we mixed it together and marinate it la. the results as u can imgained is SPICY!!! but it taste good!! yum. then alex tried to marinate it with martell and the chillis haha. i didnt eat it cos they said it's ve ve spicy, but it seems like martell is wasted cos they cldnt taste any alcohol @ all.

kelvin brought along his martell (heard tt it's preciously kept for i think 2 decades?) so good of him to share it with us haha. thn drank a lil while we were eating our bbq. so before we get e ball rolling for the drinking game, a group of us sepearates frm the rest to walk ard the condo cos we were too full. as usual, the camwhore begins.

me, lena, joreen, kelvin, meizhen

the pool!!!!!!!!! i wished i had my swimming costume with me!!

alex, meizhen's bf and her.

alrite, here comes the funny part. i invited kelvin along to do the jumping shots w me thn he said i siao.

LOOK WHO'S CRAZIER LARH!!!! lol.

after the drinking game we went to kelvin's hse for more games lol. but i was at my limit alrd, so i just drank a little. before we went hm we browse through kelvin's childhood photos, and we were laughing at his ah boy looks: centre parting, thn white white skinny skinny, and most importantly the boy in the albums looks totally different from how he looks now. he was so much handsome when he was a boy larh. haha! ok la... kidding =P

right now, i feel like eating bbq again leh. i wanna more chilli prawns!!!

2009-12-02T00:30:00.000+08:00

my frens went for dim sum buffet on monday.
and i miss it........ :(

i posted my status as "craving for alcohol now" in fb. but i didnt drink any la.
if drinking alcohol cld instantly treats my depressed mode now, it's only for a while. the next morning i wake up i'll feel worse. sigh.

gotta face it anyway..

my world now is all messed up.
Damn Shit.

job search in vain zzzz.

2009-12-01T00:43:00.001+08:00

had a small chat with my father just now to clear the misunderstandings. like what ting said, it's better to talk when both parties had cool down.

i realised my mistake later too, after thinking abt it e whole day.

now the most important thing to do is to find myself a part time job, which i had been doing so for days.
seriously, i dont understand. what issit so fussy abt a part time job that they nd to filter me out?!?! it's just a part time job ma, and i have working experience!!! so many days after a resume been sent to so many companies and i still didnt get a reply back. this is so much harder than finding a full time job lorh... at least i got asked for interviews back thn.

or issit jus my luck?

.......................... i wont give up finding jobs. humph!

Blog Under Construction

2009-11-30T17:52:00.000+08:00

New blogskin,
still under construction.

Pls do feedback to me if you have any problems accessing the blog.
Thanks! <3

Accusations

2009-11-29T23:24:00.003+08:00

looks my thoughtfulness was not appreciated, it was neglected and perceived as a foolhardy decision that causes e whole family havoc.

i thought i had been doing the right thing all along. it was against my principle to ask money from parents, and i dont like the feeling of doing so. i fed on myself if possible, unless i'm by the stress of financially exhausted, i ask for pocket money from them. i have been working for a yr before, but that doesnt mean i can support myself yet since i spent so much on some fees (educational n medical) and spending from my account feels like squeezing out on what's left there. even though i'm allowed to ask for pocket money, i nv ask for it only thn my father will hand the money to me when he rmbs it. and since i know that our family were nt v wealthy and had a lot of debts to settle, i feel so abash if i rch out my hand for money.

that leads to why i spent my 1000k to 2000k from my savings to do something important w/o informing my father, and thn now tt i told him i gt reprimanded for being unthoughtful and hot-headed.

my permission was granted frm my mother when she told me that she will not help me to pay for it since she has alrd settle for my sch fees. that i understand, and so i volunteer to fix this myself. i didnt want to bother my father and add on his burden, so i didnt tell him anything at all. little did i know that the fees to pay r more to come, that i'm resorted to ask the money from parents.

smthg to pay for health medical fees r unavoidable. as much as i dont wana pay, i still must bear the expenses.

now, am i wrong in this?!

somehow i dunno why, things that i did out of goodwill only turns out to be wrongdoings deemed by my parents, and i'm to be blamed for it.

and somehow i dont understand y some ppl r effortlessly filthy rich.

written with teardrops.

You and Me could write a Bad Romance

2009-11-26T15:19:00.003+08:00

I'm loving this song so much!!!!!

Bad Romance - Lady GaGa

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it's free
I want your love(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your loving and I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh! )
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
'Cause you're a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my rear window
Baby your sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love(Love-love-love I want your love)

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ta revanche
J'adore l'amour
I don't wanna be friends Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don't wanna be friends(Caught in a bad romance)
I don't wanna be friends Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

2009-11-18T23:45:00.002+08:00

working tml!!! finallyyyyyyyyyyyy.

but this job jus lasts me for 3 days. admin assistant @ NUS. not the school NUS, but the Lee Kuan Yew School Of Public Policy. errrs a bit confusing la, i didnt know such school existed. anws it's located near the botanic garden. so it must be quite near to town :)

for some reasons i kept searching for part time office jobs instead of retails, sales or services. i guess it's part of my attachment for my previous company CPF haha. i really enjoyed my period working there (well, excluding some parts of office political issues), sometimes i regretted my resignation, whilst a lot of others inside there preferred my situation. ok la..... the grass is always greener on the other side. when i was working thr i cant wait to quit. but now i quitted i regretted my decision. (wth?)

anws. i had a loooot of free time now bcos i'm studying n becos i have plenty of holidays. it feels so diff frm singapore schools when they atteneded classes for a long period but had only a short break haha. that is y i need a part time job to spend my hols away!!!

n i nd to earn $$$ oso! BROKE! =(

Leonid meteor showers!

2009-11-17T23:26:00.002+08:00

There'll be Leonid meteor showers appearing on next morning!! in chinese: 狮子座流星雨 i think. I'm a Leo! and i wanna watch meteor showers!!

heard tt the meteor showers will be visible throughout asia, indonesia and china being the best location. the best place to watch will be away from urban areas, cos the meteors will be drowned by the local lights, and the ideal time will be from 1am to dawn.. so even though chances of witnessing the metoer shower is slim in sg, i will still keep my eyes on the sky to catch any slightest glimpse of a meteor shower haha.

i never seen a meteor shower b4!!! i rmb my ex-bf told me he saw it @ pulau ubin, my sis also told me she saw it at home while she was staring blankly outside.. lucky them lorh!!!!! i oso wan!!

past events to update!

2009-11-15T15:40:00.008+08:00

Those who saw my fb photos wld hav know where i've been to the the past month. so, i wanna hv a brief descrpition of the events here (:

Past event #1:

Cousin's wedding =D

the most impt thing about attending weddings is how dazzling u want to look. whether u r the newly weds's friends, family, colleagues, acquaintance etc, u wouldnt want to miss a bit of attention there. it also depends on how you treat this kinda matter. some ppl pick their best outfit frm their wardrobe, some ppl re-wear the same outfit from their last wedding dinner, or some would just spend on buying another best outfit.

i've nv been to a proper wedding dinner b4, so i dont have an appropriate dress in my wardrobe to wear even tho i do have nice dresses. but this doesnt make me guilty for buying a dress specially for a dinner... right? >.<>

anws missed out the fun part of a wedding earlier in the morning. i donno what's tt tradition called, u all know abt setting obstacles for the bridegroom b4 he can pass through the door to see the bride rite? yeah. when tt happened, i'm jus awake haha. i onli witness e tea ceremony, and seriously, it's a bit of messy -_- but nvm. we'll jus skip tt part.

my cousin's wedding dinner held at hyatt hotel was awesome. the food's great, and for unknown reasons my mum kept shoving e red wine to me. .... duh. also had a bit of like reunion with my family too, it's been some time we had fun tog as a family. wanted to take pics with my camera but i didnt know both of my batteries r alrd dead zzzzzz. so i took w my hp cam.

Evelyn Tan, my cousin.

the newly weds :) she's so pretty tt day!

my dearest nai nai

my closest cousin

all the cousins!

after dinner my cousins started to cam whore haha. i can only say tt our family indeed is dramatical.

look at my father.

look at my uncle. haha. he thinks he's a principal there. @_@

it's a nice evening spent (: witnessing my cousin's wedding dinner makes me think of my future too. hmm... will i get married? when will it be? mayb i will not get married at all? haha. but hey, i dont even have a boyfriend yet k. mayb in the end there isnt any good guys left for me to be with cos thr r more n more bad guys!! agree?

next i wanna post on our JB trip and my classmate's bdae!

2009-11-15T00:58:00.008+08:00

OH YAY

EXAM OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

could not have say anymore but negligence for this blog just by the looks of it haha. yeah yeah.. i do hav stuff to write on but i'm jus too busy over my assignments and preparation for my exam and, yea, too busy slacking (which means i'm jus plain lazy lar) opps haha.

btw. i'm still having a bit of insomnia. rushing through assignments throughout the day still keeps me awake in my sleep, and it's like i only get to sleep some moment after the dawn breaks in. seriously, what happened to me?!?!! i used to sleep b4 11pm and wakes up at 10am. now, i miss my breakfast and only wakes up at 12pm to 1pm. damn.... this is so unhealthy!

but peeps, another piece of good news here. it might not be for u anws, it's for myself.
I haven't been clubbing for like a month!!! weeee *applauds to myself haha. =) any encouragements frm u guys? =P

Insomnia?

2009-10-20T00:23:00.002+08:00

Not that serious la.

but i hav been sleeping later and later recently.. ever since sch started.
it's like i feel exhausted alrd but i cant get myself to sleep even tho i have been lying on the bed for hours. guess there r too much activities going on in my brain system that doesnt want to take a break.

like now, after writing the previous post, i feel emo again and it sorta ignite the sparks to start the brain engine running, sending me lotsa emotions from the lost images, but still captured in my memory. altogether it's the misses, tt stop me from getting to bed early.

stupid emotions, i want to forget!!!!!!!

as tho it's in the routine, i feel tt it's time to force myself to lie on the bed and struggle to fight against emotions so that i could get my beauty slp......

i hope i cld fall asleep almost immediately this time..

cant get u off my head

2009-10-20T00:06:00.002+08:00

I miss u so..

I wanna see u, but on the other hand I'm so afraid to meet u.

I played the scenes so often in my head; I should have stop doing so but I just cant control myself.

I kept thinking of u,

but i bet u must be living ur life w/o my image haunting ur soul.....

.......... which i should have done so. ):

SKINNY IS NOT PRETTY

2009-10-14T21:55:00.011+08:00

attended poly gathering last sat @ east coast n the 1st thing my classmates told me is,

i'm getting skinnier!!!!

WTH! :( :( T_T

yea it's not like i didnt noticed tt myself. but it jus hurts me to hav somebody telling me e fact. i want my baby fats back!!!

i looked thru photos which were taken in the past, hmm ard 3 to 4 years back? and i compared the phtos taken now.. i looked so much skinnier, older, and uglier!!! GOSH!!!! u can see the evolution @ e pics below:

this was taken when i was 18 yrs old! chubby face!!

hmm this was taken when i was 19? i rmb is poly yr 2.

taken @ ann's 20th bdae.

my 21st bdae. face sharper! loss of fats on my cheeks!

when i entered CPF

now 22 yrs old. chin sharper, face skinnier and longer. UGGHHH!!!

SOBS. as if this is not bad enough, my face complexion worsens too. guess it's probably when i start applying products on my face wanting to make it better but fffffff, what i got is the opposite effect! grrrrrr.......

so yeah, i'm pretty upset about it even tho some of u here do not see the point, cos u might be thinking being skinny is a gd thing, BUT for me it is NOT.
NOT!

I WAN TO GAIN FATS!!!!!!!!!

The fists tt couldnt release

2009-09-28T21:45:00.002+08:00

everytime i think back, it's like a dream come true.
a sweet dream that slips in when u fall unconsciously into a nap, and when you woke up, you realized that it follows you for an agonizing period of time.
or i could describe it like a dream u woke up from too abruptly, leaving a mysterious trail of ending.

however, there is no dream i cld escaped from; it is the reality. i'm in this vicious cycle, and i have been in a while that i gotta stop this myself. everytime i stepped in i feel so silly and dumb, but i was happy back then, however my happiness always dont last. i wondered y so often, y issit tt i always got into this shit and how many times am i capable to get myself out again. y issit tt this kinda thing always happened to me, y this y that. i jus dont understand.

i'm so tired from thinking and understanding.
i jus dont wanna care anymore.......................................

but the fists wldnt release.

rude encounter

2009-09-24T14:06:00.009+08:00

I have so much to update on, but i wanna post this 1st cos this is the shortest one to blog on.

ting and i went shopping at far east and we drop by one korean shop @ 4th storey (or 3rd, i forgot). looks kind of inviting and attractive at the front of the shop, not to mention expensive. refer to the pic below:

we were looking ard and saw a row of pretty hairbands displayed on a small table. hmm so tempting to try on to see how it looks on our faces so we pick em up and put it on our heads. then this lady boss barks at us across the shop, "EH NO TRYING OF HAIRBANDS HOR!"

i turn ard and look innocently at her and say, "OH. no trying ah?" thn ting and i turn our heels and i said "WTH" loudly enough for her to hear. damn bitch. as we walked our way out ting was saying if we cannot try, then how do we know whether it looks nice on us a not??? stupid lady! so what if they costs $30++ each?!! if she dont wan ppl to try, she shld be clever enough to at least put up a sign "PLS DO NOT TRY ON" in front of the displayed hair bands right?! so old alr still no manners!!

in the end i learnt tt i'm not e onli one who experienced this attitude from her. cos turns out tt one of my fren ever got barked at when she visited this shop. if she continues her lousy service attitude thn god knows how long can she survive thr. or mayb she jus depends her sales on ppl who looks rich enough to afford the stuff thr.

in conclusion, the message tt i wanna bring across is: dont ever patronise this shop or even step a foot in. ur mood might jus get affected aft visiting this shop.
however, those who knew me well enough wld know tt my real intention is well, to tarnish the reputation and prevent more ppl from helping to increase e sales...

lol

Thousand Miles ♥

2009-09-21T00:02:00.006+08:00

Making our way downtown~ =P

it's fridayyyyy

and beng and i fetched angelis at e mrt stn near her workplace bcos she was late. AGAIN. but kind of understand her situation at work; poor her got called back to office even tho she applied leave -_-

btw. we made wonderful plans on fri nite :D

lis cld drive us to east coast for seafood dinner, and thn drives us to where ever we wanna go!! it's soooo COOL, this is my 1st time out in my fren's car the whole night! and we can access to places where we seldom cld go.. AWESOME!!!!

dropped by at angelis's hse to pick up her car.. and thn off we go! lis was apparently nervous cos it's her 1st time driving her frens out tt far, but otherwise the rest of us were in glee. she made a few driving blunders but it was ok la, at least ah beng was there to guide her along heh.

rched east coast and i recommend them a seafood stall there, the food is CHEAP n DELICIOUS. beng took a pic of e stall so if u happened to recognise it, do try their seafood. thumbs up!!!

feels great to indulge in heavenly good but super spicy seafood~! yummilicious ;P too bad for pei wen tho. she cant tahan spicy food!!

aft our scrumptious dinner we strolled along e east coast beach for a while to hav our food digested cos we were all so full!! cam whore thr as usual and we went back to e car for our next destination:

Changi Village

i've heard about the transexuals there for a loooooong time but nv been thr to witness them. now it's e chance!!!! haha. we were so anticipated laa!

BUT BUT. 1st i wanna divulge angelis's anecdote! for some of you who know, the transexuals r stationed ard a small car park inside, which is just beside a bus interchange. so it's like there're 2 lanes turning into e car park and bus interchange from the main road. wad i wanna say is, kuku angelis turned into the 1st lane which heads into the bus interchange la!!!! FREAKING FUNNY CAN! and there was one bus following our car behind! i bet the bus drivers must be laughing up their sleeves! haha. i laughed till my cheeks hurts!

anws. our car had to made ard 3 rounds ard the car park so tt we can see em clearer. GOSH. THEY'RE SO PRETTY AND THEIR BODIES R SO GORGEOUS!!!! like i was so awed cos some of em looked like genuine women. and they were all dressed ve skimpily. wa lau. so tempted to be like them (as in, plastic surgery) haha.

a moment ltr, more transexuals showed up and our car happened to pass by one of em, whose boobs r humongous, with what she's wearing a dress where only two piece of cloth covering e nipple part. jus as our car passed by, the breeze parted the cloth and his/her skin, revealing his/her nipple!! well, angelis saw tt haha. but beng and pei wen, who were sitting @ e back of e car, were complaining (esp beng) cos they totally missed tt part. sorry~ LOL

we headed down to airport thn cos we wanted to catch e airplane. WAH. sounds like we're really gonna board the plane but no la, jus wanna enjoy the view and watch the planes depart.. but too bad la. the viewing mall was closed @ e moment. so we toured ard terminal 3... the space thr is damn vast and it's interior design is so grand n pretty!!

yeah played a bit thr. thn we got tired and headed hm.. which ard 3am alr! btw, when angelis drived me home she nearly turn into e bus interchange at clementi again. LOL LOL LOL. she jus likes to visit the bus interchange uncles so much.

Endless Parties

2009-09-11T15:06:00.004+08:00

MY FIRST TIME TO BUTTER FACTORY!!!

meet my classmates at raffles and we headed down to butter fac. was a bit excited laa, cos heard tt it's fun! but when we rch there, which is ard 940pm, i saw the queue and i nearly fainted zzzzz...

SO MANY PPL CAN! the queue was damn loooooong! the queue's like those mini concert, and then u'll see the fans queueing up in a long string.. that's how long it is. moreover it's ladies night so we waited for our turn to go in for like... 2 hrs?? almost there la. a bit mood dampening, cos we're like sweating and feeling sticky all over even before we go in and we had to stand there for hrs. no wonder i heard from em tt u hav to be early. hell.....

but this is the price to pay for... cos it's fun fun FUN!!!

it's onli like near to 12am but the music was alr good. the whole nite they were playing the rnb music and you can realli sweat it out there, dance like u nv dance b4! still, nv to hit on the danceflr cos it's freaking packed. like, body to body can. and the queue for drinks are oso freaking loooong. OMG. one thing i noticed abt butter fac is tt the queues there are always LONG. *faint

photos:

all the gals!

peeps!

something v.v.v. funny happened in btw. one indian guy suddenly join our grp and the guys were like protecting us frm him. then, the next thing we know, 2 of my guy frens started dancing w him and grinding him la!!!!! GROSS! haha! super funny can, i laughed until my cheeks hurts.

ANWS.
lotsa parties gg on this wk. faints.. jux attended my fren's sis's fren (complicated la) bdae at marina country club on friday. then tue k box with my ex colleagues. then, on this wed or next wed, clubbing again cos it's my classmates bdae. and then on sat attending a party at sentosa chalet, and clubbing aft tt. GOSH.......

and i still havent got a job.

Photoshooting.. to do it or not???

2009-09-09T00:19:00.002+08:00

i cant believe it when one professional photographer came to me and ask me to try photoshooting for him!

Devine Vaughn: have u model for shoots b4? :)
Me: err yes but onli for my cousin's blogshop
Devine Vaughn: oooh okies.. but is it fun? :) haha... would u b keen to try a more exciting shoot then? :)

me: hmmm but i dont think i look great in photo shooting
Devine Vaughn: depends on the photographer. :)
u r the cute girl in white in ur dp? hmm.. well, i like ur looks. :)

me: well.. u nvr see my actual looks
Devine Vaughn: well, i dun really care about real looks as long as u look good on photos. haha

me: hmmm sorry but i still hav doubts for my capability. not confident enough haha. hmm can u give me time to think?
Devine Vaughn: of cos. u can check out my photographer profile here: http://www.modelmayhem.com/808685

i took a look at the website, and then i realized that he only accepts bikini and/or lingerie themes! GOSH. the 1st thing tt comes into my mind is, he is looking for the WRONG person. perhaps some of u may know, bee lye was his model before for the Silhouette series of photos. yeah, so here i trust his professionalism, but i dont trust mine. it's great that u can do something exciting or adventurous while u are young, and i will do it if i have a great body. but look at me!! zzzzz

i told him tt i will giv him a reply by fri, while i nd time to consider. sigh.
i think i better give him a reply soon so tt i wont waste his time anymore!

miss the smell of CASH

2009-09-08T14:01:00.003+08:00

I'M SO BORED...

and POOR!!!!

oh pls i need to earn some cash, and do something instead of idling at hm w nothing to do!

ever since i left the company and started schooling, one significant thing tt i missed so much is the cash rolling into my account each mth. zzzzzz. and now i had to rely on pocket money, which doesnt sounds great at all to me, esp i dont like e feeling of rching out my hand from my parents who had alr spent a bomb on my sch fees.

apart frm tt, i still cant adapt to my new environment. this kinda environment is very new to me.. and i'm ve uncomfortable w tt. sigh. feel like forcing myself to sch! ...... i'll explain more on this next time.

now, all i need is CASHHHHH!!! $$$$$$$$$ LOBANGS.. ANYONE?????!

Changed my blogskin ;)

2009-09-07T23:39:00.002+08:00

I was too bored at home and i changed my blogskin!!!
NICE????

dont be fooled by the sweet layout of the blog.. i'm not very a sweet kinda gal except to my bf hahaahaha... which in this case, sadly, i dont have.

anws ppl, pls feedback to me if u find any shortcomings on this skin.. THANKSIE!!!

EXAM OVERRRRR!!

2009-09-07T14:24:00.003+08:00

ok my exam's finally over!!!

i told my frens tt my exam's coming and everyone were like, "wow!". yeah i know. i'd only started sch not long before and had only went through 9 lessons and POM!! here comes the exam. so was quite stressed yah.

anw i dunno how well i can fare for it, cos i jus wrote wadever i know on the exam paper and the rest just hand over my results to fate and luck haha!

watched "BRUNO" and clubbed with my frens at zouk over the past 2 wks of break i had and yep, for the rest of the days i'm studying. BRUNO is a super sicko gay show, nearly puked my pop corns out while watching it but LOL was heard in the whole theatre haha!

i laughed when i saw this photo haha. his adopted african kid "Audrey" in the show

the actor starring in the show: Sacha Baron Cohen. this pic so man la!!

last sat went zouk with my ex-colleagues and sueann, then meet up with daniel and his frens. was not high at all, and the music sucks. so much as i got tired of dbl o, i think that it is still better than zouk, or mayb the music wasnt nice on tt night onli. next club to try is butter fac.. hope it's good like i've heard so!!

will upload e pics taken tt night next time as camera is with my sis. she went to taiwan for 9 days!!!!! UUUUGHH!!! i oso wanna go!!! =(

2 weeks left.

2009-08-23T22:21:00.005+08:00

onli a few more days to consider..........

anws, i've got my study break for my exam dued 2 weeks later, and i've got a holly long questions of post assignment to do during these 2 weeks too. havent start revising or did the assignment yet, dont feel like doing until tml. my break for myself is onli today, and for the rest of the days i'd be giving myself targets on the assignment and the revision. hope it'll be fine..

guys, i still can go out at night, it's not like i'm confined to my studying. so jio me out ok... bcos i'd be damn bored.......

was looking through the blog shops and got tempted by these:

nice? i'm thinking whether to buy them down or not....

i still misses.

Pics I promised.

2009-08-23T20:43:00.007+08:00

wth i've got no photoshop to use to do my phtos..

had uploaded them here so enjoy!

hui ling (she was actually prooving us her double chins haha!!)

silly mousey and mei zhen

hui ling and mei zhen

mei zhen, hui ling and kelvin.

This pic ve funny la!!! caught mz pushing kelvin's head!! look @ kelvin's expression HAHA!

silly mousey and hui ling.

on rare occasion silly mousey shows the unglam side of her =P

wondering where's mine rite? hahaa. i have onli one reasonable unglam pic cos i was busy taking others......

NAH.

sorry to disappoint u heh.

Night with Food and Laughter, Refund Management ex-colleagues

2009-08-18T21:45:00.000+08:00

A sudden call frm my friend at work and i get my ass down to seoul garden at marina sq after sch.. it's a farewell dinner for pearlyn!

enjoyed the night till the end; all the noise we made and the laughter tt rings the night alive!!! it's been quite a while since i last saw my ex-colleagues.. i feel the warmth when i saw them last night, and i couldnt bear to watch them leave. misses!! laughed a lot till i cried haha, and also trying to catch up the latest gossips and happenings ard the office. of cos they discussed a lot of work stuff, and as i listened i realized how much in me tt i wanted to join them.. but of cos tt's impossible la.

took lotsa photos, look up to my facebook if u're interested. however, the ones in fb shows only the stereotypical set of happy n nice pictures, reason being i'm not allowed to post those (tons of) unglam photos cos if i do, the victims will chop me into pieces~!!!

i promise to show those unglam photos here, only after i edited them 1st =P they are really really funny!!! hopefully they wont look into my blog.......

Deprived from tranquility

2009-08-17T12:07:00.004+08:00

Three lessons worth of strain, worries, and a dose of gloominess.
I spent the last few days thinking what should be the best for me.. then dwelling on the fact tt I had made a huge mistake for the impulsive decision that cannot be undone, only to be corrected or persisted.

Have to admit tt this is gonna be a challenge to me. Already took one step forward but I did not embraced it eagerly.. had consulted a few close of friends of mine on this issue, everyone of them told me to hang on there, give it a shot first. I know this very well deep in my heart, however it's the dark shadow of resignation tt clouded over my rationalization that i've lost a state of mind to reason it out. Now tt with their help, I know what i should be doing now. though i still cant help feeling the dread....

I'll do my best at this moment, and i wish i can get through it..

School.Starts. TODAY.

2009-08-13T12:07:00.002+08:00

Today is the day when my classes officially begin.
It is also a day when i finally had the mood to update my blog!! haha

So much has been gg on since i last left this poor blog untouched.. big events like my resignation, my birthday etc, small goings-on like all the fun, excitement.. or the ups and downs i went through this period. dont wanna go into details.. else it will take forever for me to update. those who knew it they'll know it, those who dont and are interested, feel free to meetup and i will fill your in with the chapters LOL.

anws, i hereby announce that from today onwards, i am officially a student of MDIS, and am pursuing the degree in Bachalor of Arts, Mass Communication under Oklahoma City University, USA. I'll be heading to sch in approximately an hr's time, and i'm slightly freaked out and worried. i can alr imagine a class of english speaking students, eagerly writing a looooong sheet of reports and handing them up way before the deadline. I can also hear them babbling their proficient english with sharp and precise pronounciation and hear them laughing at their own jokes.. and i dont understand them at all. omg.

ok, before i can hyperventilate any further, i'll go get myself prepared and stop this whatever sypmtoms i'm feeling. wish me gd luck...

Exhausted..

2009-06-22T21:16:00.002+08:00

I've got so many things to blog on but

I'm so tired!!!!!

Every wk feels the same. rush here rush there.. sunday's the only day for me to rest but it's not enough bcos i still had to deal with some house chores.. so it wasnt exactly a rest too. =(

cant wait for the english courses to end. this teacher (Chris) who is a replacement of my last teacher (Edward) sucks. he totally made the lessons a boredom.. cant concentrate man!

counting down to 2 lessons..

Something true abt Lions.. RAWR!

2009-06-08T00:04:00.015+08:00

Was looking at this email my colleague sent me at work... Horoscopes in details.. ACCURATE!
Be prepared though, it's a post of chinese words!

狮子

狮子座的人很不愿意伤害别人，因为他的内心是善良和充满正义感的，他是重视原则的人，但是，如果他做了伤害别人的事情，即便出于面子他没有说什么，但是其实内心里他会真的好自责好内疚的，虽然别人看不到，但是他的确会好难过。

- comments: my pride pride pride! but i still feel sorry and guilty ok! haha

狮子座的人，无论男女，都很容易陷入一份感情，但是热情来的很快，冷却的速度也快得惊人，我不知道别人是不是这样，我是真的这样的。如果他可以对一份感情持续很长的时间，那么恭喜了，说明你真的很强势很有魅力，足以让他对你死心塌地，否则，狮子座这种内在没有安全感又很敏感的动物，很可能从更有魅力和新鲜的事物上找温暖，因为，狮子座的我们看起来好坚强好阳光好乐观，但是骨子里面的不安感从未消退过，表面的自信只不过是保护自己的盔甲，但并不是很真实。

- comments: false on the easy come easy go feelings. tt depends on how much i love e person! true on the insecureness.. i'm actually ve fragile lol!

同时，狮子座的人也可以很绝情，这点我认识所有的狮子座的人也包括我自己都很像，不可能吃回头草，字典里没有“后悔”或者“回头”这两个词，因为狮子座的人很爱面子，自尊心比什么都重要，一旦放弃了或者决定了，就不可能回过头去改变，狮子座的人也很怕被伤害。作为我，宁可错过一份感情，宁可放弃。宁可不要，也不会冒可能会被伤害的危险，因为太不值得，因为狮子座的人太爱自己了。。。

- comments: Slogan for Leos, "Nv Turn Back". how true haha. totally agree on the part it describes how Leos turn away a relationship to prevent themselves from getting hurt again.

狮子座的人喜欢热闹，但是也很享受孤独，他可以把这两者之间搞得很平衡，他很喜欢跟朋友一起，疯狂的玩闹，成为一个party的主角，但是回到家里，他立马就可以变得异常安静，不喜欢被打扰，他需要自己的空间来思考，如果不给狮子这个空间，对他步步紧逼，那么他一定会抓狂，变得不可理喻，他还会离开你，因为在狮子的字典里，“自由”和“自我”这两词的比重几乎占据了全部。

- Comments: Couldnt agree more to this! love partying and crowds but on the other hand desired a time for themselves. DO NOT take my personal time away!!!!

狮子座的人有两种不同的倾向，一种是很喜欢天然的东西，不喜欢过多的修饰；另一类是很喜欢奢华另类奇特的事物，更多是狮子座是两者兼有，我属于这一种，我讨厌过度无谓的修饰，但是欣赏另类特别和高雅的事物，对于爱人的选择上，可能也会结合这个标准。

- Comments: Oooh lala, simplicity is beauty =)

狮子座的人很宽容，通常不会因为小事而斤斤计较，他们喜欢展现自己与众不同的仁慈心和获得尊重。对于过往的爱人，狮子座的人很少去探讨是谁的功过是非，无论当时对方有多伤害自己，但是过去了就过去了，狮子座的人不会去诅咒或者怨恨，因为他们喜欢向前看，他们不喜欢做八婆和有损自己高贵形象的事情。狮子座的人相信，只要自己完美和努力，幸福就在前方，更美好的一定在等待着我们！！

- Comments: Forgive and forget. Let bygones be bygones! Tt's meeee!!!

Tioman phtos as my screensaver!

2009-05-27T12:40:00.012+08:00

I'm now at work and
I'm so bored!!!
zzzz...

come to think of it, i nv put up my photos taken at tioman island before.. tut of sharing the few photos which i set it as my screensaver for my com at work =D

the simple resort we lived in

drunkards! hehe

sun tanning at e beach!

WE LOVE THE BEACH! WEEEEE!!

ya. the photos above are exactly the ones i set up as screensaver in my desktop at work HEHE... including the drunkard pic with ann. lol. so it's like, every colleague can see our pics! =P

Sigh.. I miss e fun! Beach trips anyone????

Over You

2009-05-26T16:57:00.004+08:00

Over You - Chris Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down, like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming, I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure, I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces, I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls, dragged the memories down the hall, Packed your bags and
walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut, a lot of others opened up, so did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming, I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure, I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces, I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.

Through these days i discovered my true feelings.. Now i know i'm finally over you.

Aching for internet access

2009-05-24T13:40:00.005+08:00

Laptop and desktop have been down for months..

And I'm now waiting patiently for the computer guy to bring back my repaired laptop and linksys adaptor so that i could use the com for the whole day with unlimited hours. I havent been using the com for the whole wk as my sis was always using her laptop for her sch work and due to the fact tt my desktop is down n my lappie went hm with the computer guy for repair. I couldnt wait for my lappie to arrive!!!! =D

Will update more as soon as i got my laptop back. Provided tt it's working fine..

Modelling.. Me??

2009-05-17T22:50:00.002+08:00

Changed my profile pic!! This looks nice enough but i wanna take more pics for better one. Keep improving ya? hehe.

My cousin just talked to me into modelling for her online shopping spree! I did this before with ting and i found tt it was quite fun! The last time we did she jus capture on my body.. I'm ok with shooting just my body.. but face?? I'm not photogenic leh! and i'm not pretty enough la! lol.

nevertheless i'm quite excited about it =P if nd to capture my face then i really nd to go on practising smiling to cameras and look photogenic!!!

Memories

2009-05-17T18:08:00.004+08:00

Memory: the mental capacity or faculty of retaining and reviving facts, events, impressions, etc., or of recalling or recognizing previous experiences.

I love and hate memories. Love it because some memories of the past are so beautiful and significant, or something i described as sentimental and nostalgic. It is impossible to forget.. yet, sometimes i wished i had the ability to erase part of my memories, so that it no longer reminds me.. so tt i wouldnt recall at all. However lovely some part of my memory is.. today, it remains painful to me.

We all know that memories belongs to the past. The fact tt it is a past and it will never happen the same way it did again. Even if we do come across the same scenario tt happens to be in your memory, i doubt it feels the same as before... It's either maybe you'll feel better, or not.

At times, i wondered to myself.. whether the few ppl whom i had came across their life ever had memories of me at all. Whether they had thought of me... or got reminded of me of some things they do.. or any events they recalled with me inside.... just the way i do as my memories with them materialized automotically in my mind. As their life goes on.. am i forgotten??

No matter how forgetful i am.. i do rmb the things, rmb them.
What about you..? Remember me?

Welcome =)

2009-05-17T15:07:00.001+08:00

Welcome to my new blog!

Finally.. :P
This is the place where i'm gonna be posting my everyday-life, open for everyone to see. so ppl, feel free to drop comments!

I havent been writing for a long time, suddenly i'm so lost in words now. lol. anw.. i nd to rest now, otherwise i couldnt concentrate on writing on stuff i wanna post. Meanwhile, pls be patient for my updates due to my busy schedule..

So ta-dah!

p.s. The profile pic as u can see, is obviously not me. i'm not tt pretty. i'm still finding a nice one to put up!

♥Cherie♥

Your words are toxic

tomorrow

And I'm Guilty

Pinky Pink

I know I love dancing

FLAT BROKE

Mind your words, Watch your mouth

SIM Bash Party @ supperclub

Rene Furterer Shampoo for Thinning Hair

RE: to zhiyi

Oh United States of America!

you shldn't be THE benchmark

disappointed

Weakling!!!

why so emotional?

Despicable Me

along these 9988776 days

toothache

rawr!

give me a sign.

Why am I single?

Oprah Winfrey's View on Men

Pink Volkswagen Beetle

Simple Saturday

love at first sight

Prudential Sucks!

such an irony

when everything just caves in

Stress Factors

i want a fufilling hols spent

dejavu?

我爱他

reincarnation eh?

golden lovies

幸福的原点

shopping la!

Drive Safely!

Looney FB

BON VOYAGE JIANA

girl molested by 4 guys part 2

Bikini Girl Molested by 4 Guys

Happy 10th yr Anniversary!

NY resolutions

emo momo

talk abt club

have no regrets

early sleep, sweet dreams

procrastinate.OVER.

new look ;)

what's more to suffice the stress on me.

lalala

Birthday Celebration for 老猴

Colorgenics Personality test

海派甜心

a reunion w colleagues

job search in vain zzzz.

Blog Under Construction

Accusations

You and Me could write a Bad Romance

Leonid meteor showers!

past events to update!

Insomnia?

cant get u off my head

SKINNY IS NOT PRETTY

The fists tt couldnt release

rude encounter

Thousand Miles ♥

*Endless Parties*

Photoshooting.. to do it or not???

miss the smell of CASH

Changed my blogskin ;)

EXAM OVERRRRR!!

2 weeks left.

Pics I promised.

Night with Food and Laughter, Refund Management ex-colleagues

Deprived from tranquility

School.Starts. TODAY.

Exhausted..

Something true abt Lions.. RAWR!

Endless Parties